RElapse.... Now some Cheese whizzzz.....

So... I tried those Kale chips... umm.... first time around... not so much. They burnt so quickly and I even only put them in for 10 minutes? They collapsed into dust in my mouth. Oh, well, they had a pretty good taste. Either way... Unfortunately, I think I really needed those kale chips in my life to be tasty as all get out, and because that first attempt failed... I moved on to umm... sadly enough... chocolate chips. But seriously, do you blame me? Ok, despite the boringness that is a chocolate chip. You'd think that something from another hierarchy of delectable delights would steal my thunder away from how great i've been doing with the LowCarberdome... however, they fell into my mouth... well, pretty much. They fell from the cupboard, the oven was on, making the top of the stove rather warm, the bag broke, spilling the chocolate chips everywhere. I was scooping them up ferociously, however, it just wasn't quick enough, they melted, on the stove, all over my hands was molten chocolate. When I looked at them, all I could see was chocoloate dipped. AHh... So I licked each finger and my palm and devoured each and every morsel that fell. Goodness gracious. And then I decided I needed some fries, why? Because I already had chocolate chips. See my mentality? Seriously an all or nothing type. It's got to be insane to witness. My poor boyfriend. I love him dearly, and am grateful that he has endured thus far. Gosh, it's just ridiculous... I have soooo much to do! But for some reason, I keep wasting my energies on things that don't even remotely apply to my to do list... including typing on this blog right now. So insane. I have three cans of diet soda in front of me, 1 half full of warm soda, that I never finished, and two empty. Why? Because I drank one, newly finished another, and found one that I forgot I opened.. I need to bake some cheesecake bites for my Passion Party tomorrow... but for some reason, I haven't attempted to begin. AH... typing about it is actually making me a little restless. I am going to bake those now! Yes! But hey, I did prepare the salmon... it is marinading right now...

Grilled Salmon I: Another recipe from allrecipes.com with rave reviews.
Ingredients

1 1/2 pounds salmon fillets
lemon pepper to taste
garlic powder to taste
salt to taste
1/3 cup soy sauce
1/3 cup brown sugar
1/3 cup water
1/4 cup vegetable oil
Directions

Season salmon fillets with lemon pepper, garlic powder, and salt.
In a small bowl, stir together soy sauce, brown sugar, water, and vegetable oil until sugar is dissolved. Place fish in a large resealable plastic bag with the soy sauce mixture, seal, and turn to coat. Refrigerate for at least 2 hours.
Preheat grill for medium heat.
Lightly oil grill grate. Place salmon on the preheated grill, and discard marinade. Cook salmon for 6 to 8 minutes per side, or until the fish flakes easily with a fork.

As for the Cheesecake, my friend Stacy turned me on to this awesome site, Bakerella.com and she has this awesomely delicious, awesomely easy recipe for cheesecake bites. I alter mine a little by adding some chocolate chips to the cup before filling them in, ads a delightful crunch. I have made them several times and each time they are wonderful, especially at the parties, they are gone in minutes.

Super Easy Mini Cherry Cheesecakes
2 pkg. (8oz.) cream cheese, softened to room temperature
3/4 cup sugar
3 eggs
1 Tbsp vanilla
1 Tbsp lemon juice

Mix.

vanilla wafers
2″ aluminum mini baking cups
Cherry Pie Filling

Place a vanilla wafer in each mini baking cup.
Spoon approximately 3 Tbsp of cream cheese mixture over each wafer. Makes about 4 dozen.Bake at 350 for 15-20 minutes. Let cool and top with cherry pie filling. Refrigerate.

Recipe to try...

Kale Chips!

Now, I haven't tried these yet, but I am really looking forward to them being engulfed by my life. I got this recipe from allrecipes.com and the reviews about it were raving! I'll let ya know how it goes!

Ingredients
1 bunch kale
1 tablespoon olive oil
1 teaspoon seasoned salt
Directions

Preheat an oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C). Line a non insulated cookie sheet with parchment paper.

With a knife or kitchen shears carefully remove the leaves from the thick stems and tear into bite size pieces. Wash and thoroughly dry kale with a salad spinner. Drizzle kale with olive oil and sprinkle with seasoning salt.
Bake until the edges brown but are not burnt, 10 to 15 minutes.

The venture into Low-Carberdome... A LIFESTYLE CHANGE.

As you may have read in my last post... I am currently enjoying a low carb treat that I purchased from Dutch Bros Coffee. It's delicious! And only about 5 net carbs! It is a sugar free white chocolate with steamed half and half latte. Dutch Bros has pretty much anything you want in sugar free. It's amazing. Either way... I have finally jumped back on the horse of LIFESTYLE CHANGE. I loaded up my freezer with meats that range from salmon to pork roast to chicken to steak. I've got no excuse not to do this. I have inched my way back up the scale to 250 pounds. It's just getting ridiculous. The torture that I am putting my body through, let alone my pyche through has taken it's last stomp on my life. Literally, you should have seen me this weekend. I'm not sure why I did it. I'll give you a horrific picture of my life. So, I was sick, all weekend. My nose was stuffed and continued to stay stuffed no matter how many times I blew and blew. I had been doing so well, changing my lifestyle before I had gotten sick. I was to the point where I really wasn't even craving sweets. But somehow... something in my mind took over and retreated back to my previous lifestyle and screamed and screamed from the back of my mind, "I want cookies!" and repeated until I couldn't take it any longer and succumbed to that voice (even got my boyfriend on the bandwagon so there was no backing down)... and made a couple dozen from scratch. Yes, I couldn't breath through my nose, therefore I purchased some nasal decongestant just so I could possibly get a taste... they helped temporarily and for those few minutes I stuffed as many cookies as I could in my mouth and washed them down with an ice cold glass of milk (which yes, I know, not such a good idea with the mucas, but I had to, for some sick reason). Wow, disgusting. But yea, so after I did this, and during, I felt disgusting and was mad at myself, but I couldn't stop. After that, I told myself, "eh, you already ate the cookies, now eat those chips you've been pondering. I stuffed several into my mouth, chewed half open so I could breathe. Wow, what a depressing picture I am painting. either way, I am stopping this. It's just ridiculous. Obviously I was stuffing myself from another direction. I mean, yes, physically, but there was some void emotionally that was causing the consumption. I am trying to figure out where this void is in my life. I happen to think that it's possibly because my life is so unorganized and I feel so overwhelmed with all my tasks "to do" that I avoid life altogether and consume food to numb me up. I don't know. It just gets ridiculous sometimes. I recently bought a book that my friend Natalya turned me onto, "Organize Now" by Jennifer Ford Berry it is a "week by week guide to organize your space and your life". And I feel like this will definitely help me to connect moreso with what is driving me to these binges. To start organizing my life! Woo! So ..... Here we go!!

Ok Mel!

Soo... I am sitting here, sipping on my Dutch Bros delectable delight... which consists of sugar free white chocolate syrup, steamed half and half, and some premium dutch bros coffee. I am enjoying it immensely. Here at work that is... and Mel just scolded me for not writing on this blog... So, I'm doing it! haha. It is really something I want to do, something I want to pour my heart and soul into, however, I'm just not sure as to why I never follow through. I think part of the reason is that I get all caught up in the idea of failure. I think that I want to be the best from the beginning... and don't want to put my weaknesses out there for anyone to see. Well, enough of that! I've got to do this, if not for me, than for those who may read this and may get some sort of satisfaction out of it. Well, whatever. Need I say, here we go again, again? Sure, why not, but this is the last time! Here we go!!